repetitive analysis

 she once said that what I was doing
was 'just like meditation, only more painful'

same source, different day;
poetry can be similar to journaling, only more wistful.

a grain of salt could come in handy,
but a smart remark would be more helpful.

often it is the implied reverberation
that sends a conversation over the edge.

as figured fears work their way into our psyche.
so do our commitments often become the wedge.

While a chipping hammer was at one time adequate,
today I am reaching for the sledge.

passion scatters amongst the dust,
shedding darkness one cold layer at a time.


-b2

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tha' way

once being taught THE way
seldom shown a path

moving the needle
scratching but the surface

feedback is optional
adherence will be measured

peripheral musings wield heavy consequences

sharing time over java
beats milking clocks under pressure

rhythmic priorities find placement
sliding rules mute compliance

honest delirium creeps
wickedly into view

pen-'person'-ship says it all
but gets nothing done

-b2

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AFTER THE GUN - III

'the anatomy of a toothache’

By

b2

SMASHWORDS EDITION

PUBLISHED BY:

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After the Gun

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not intended to replace history books, encyclopedias, or one’s individual responsibility to use

their head for more than a hat rack. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual

events could be coincidental, but I doubt it.

**The thoughts, words, and ideas contained in this work have not been homogenized for the

masses. While it is not my intention to be labeled as a writer of ‘Adult Content’, nor do I feel that

anything you are about to read is harmful or profane. However, I do come from a long line of

sailors. The bottom line / bottom line is that if your children are required to use the word bottom

when referring to their backside (as is mandated in my house) then you may want to consider

reading your child a Dr. Seuss book and putting them to bed prior to scrolling to the next page**

This serial anthology gets its root from a sister series, ‘Under the Gun’ which originally appeared

on the blog b2publishing. Both ‘UTG’ and ‘ATG’ are extreme forms of experimental literature

where the content is published immediately after creation. One quick run of spell check is the

only thing between the pontificator’s thoughts and the reader’s mind. There is little editing,

absolutely no safety net, and no lawyers have been harmed in the process (to date). You are

about to read the next installment of ‘ATG’ which will surely spur you to become a follower of

b2, or the member of a support group.

 

 

After the Gun

 

 

 

 

Episode 3

‘the anatomy of a toothache’

‘Look on yonder misty mountain. See the young monk meditating rhododendron forest’

– Donovan Phillips Leitch

Psychosis has its advantages. ‘Normal’ people often go to extreme lengths in order to

 

escape reality, enjoy sublime rushes of adrenaline, and fall into excitement riddled stupors

of mad joy. I get to do it all the time. Drug free.

I stopped taking my prescription weeks ago. Not sure why. Part of me just wanted to

know what I was running from. Sometimes numbing the pain just makes us more numb to

the reality we so deeply crave. ‘Pain is just a feeling’, he always told me. My experience has

been that the absence of pain does not necessarily equate to joy. Rather, feeling sun on a

cheek, even as it slowly radiates the skin; hearing another’s voice, that is incessantly

screaming profanities into your tear strewn face; knowing that all you are hearing is lies,

when all you ever wanted was to show that you care; all of these are overdue, over-rated,

and often replicated.

Things are going to be different this time. I have a plan. My resolve is solid, my

determination strong. I see the path before me, now I just have to make that first step. Make

the plan, work the plan. Make the plan, work the plan. Make the plan, see something shiny,

divert the plant, regret changing the plan, beat myself up and lose sleep because of the plan,

start working the plan again. Make the plan, work the plan. Make the plan, work the

 

plan…………….

(you have just been exposed to a heaping helping of the serial anthology known as ‘After the

Gun’. Do not be alarmed if you feel different after reading this. It is not necessarily the words,

but more that passage of time that inspires us to change, as well as causing extremely long hairs

to begin growing out of our ears. – b2)

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AFTER THE GUN - II: prioritized harmonics

 

After the Gun - II

 

'prioritized harmonics’

 

By

 

b2

 

SMASHWORDS EDITION

 

PUBLISHED BY:

Bryan Byrd on Smashwords

 

After the Gun

Copyright © 2013 b2 publishing

 

Thank you for downloading this free e-book. Although this is a free book, it remains the copyrighted property of the author and may not be reproduced, scanned, or distributed for any commercial or non-commercial use without permission from the author. Quotes used in reviews are the exception. No alteration of content is allowed. If you enjoyed this book, then encourage your friends to download their own free copy.

Your support and respect for the property of this author is appreciated.

This is a work of creative non-fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are most likely convenient hallucinations, but also could very well be the products of the author’s warped imagination. In either case, all information is used in a fictitious manner and not intended to replace history books, encyclopaedias, or one’s individual responsibility to use their head for more than a hat rack. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events could be coincidental, but I doubt it.

**The thoughts, words, and ideas contained in this work have not been homogenized for the masses. While it is not my intention to be labeled as a writer of ‘Adult Content’, nor do I feel that anything you are about to read is harmful or profane. However, I do come from a long line of sailors. The bottom line / bottom line is that if your children are required to use the word bottom when referring to their backside (as is mandated in my house) then you may want to consider reading your child a Dr. Seuss book and putting them to bed prior to scrolling to the next page**

This serial anthology gets its root from a sister series, ‘Under the Gun’ which originally appeared on the blog b2publishing. Both ‘UTG’ and ‘ATG’ are extreme forms of experimental literature where the content is published immediately after creation. One quick run of spell check is the only thing between the pontificator’s thoughts and the reader’s mind. There is little editing, absolutely no safety net, and no lawyers have been harmed in the process (to date). You are about to read the first installment of ‘ATG’ which will surely spur you to become a follower of b2, or the member of a 12 step process.

 

After the Gun

 

Episode 2

 

'prioritized harmonics’

 

‘Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run,

there's still time to change the road you're on. (I sure hope so..)’

 – Robert Anthony Plant

 

Ralph Waldo Emerson felt that wisdom could be found from ‘liv(ing) the greatest number of good hours’. While on paper this can certainly show merit, stacking the search of good hours up against the rushing hot magma that is our 21^st Century lives can exacerbate any, and all, existing symptoms of hypertension. Unfortunately, I do not suffer from high blood pressure, and may very well be the only person living that wishes he did.   My ailment poussée évolutive is something quite a bit less desirable, yet ironically has allowed me more than my fair share of success.  

Blood runs through my veins and much faster than normal rate, yet the combination of a naturally thinning blood and an oversized heart have resulted in a rather impatient patient that often must endure many specialists, who often insist on hearing the whole damn story again, and again. Yes, it is good to be alive. Yes, I do my part to exploit the fringe benefits of my ‘condition’. No, I don’t know (no one does) how long until this delicate balancing act of opposing medicinal priorities will collide in just the right manner prior to violently snapping out of sync ending with my heart exploding like a pumpkin in a microwave.

But that’s not the fun part. Two to three times a week on average I am thrust into a frantic rocket of activity which can provide what can be an incredibly productive day or an unplanned visit to a local cardiac unit. Just depends on the choices I make, and the number of coffee pots I drain before noon.

I used to enjoy our morning cups of Joe. Really did. Back then. Not now. Not since I got back from the street. Not since I got off the medications.

Sure, I feel better. Much better. Got the whole bloody mind, body, and spirit thing going full tilt. Now I just have to figure out how to parlay the momentum into something that doesn’t suck.

Walking back to house tonight following a quick after dinner stroll I started to obsess over the puddle filled pot holes that pock the gravel road winding down the mountain. They would be filled soon. The spring scraping would pull a thin layer of rock and mud over each blemish, unearthing ancient treasures along the way.

My psyche is long overdue for grading, my judgement writing sheafs of bad checks that fall aimlessly into brown rainwater, sticking to my boots. Shaking my fragile resolve.

Tomorrow will be different. Tides will turn. Anxieties will mellow.

But today we drink coffee. Alone.

 

(you have just experienced another episode of the serial anthology known as ‘After the Gun’. Breathe in, breath out, make sure and collect your belongings from the seat back pocket. The road to Valhalla is paved with brave misconceptions. Move past the current patterns, push yourself capriciously, and make sure to release the parking brake- b2)

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